I am twenty-two years of age as of today and looking back on the last two decades and two extra years I find myself not looking back at much. The truth is that when I look at my life I find myself disappointed, extremely disappointed. I am not hugely successful with people, not particularly intelligent, I’m unfit and unhealthy, I’m bad with money, and I’m impatient. I can’t play any instruments despite owning several and I can only speak one language. I’m not well travelled and I have little knowledge of the world. What’s probably worse is that I have aspirations and never follow them through. My life up to this point has been a shambles, a shadow of a life, a pathetic excuse for a life, a waste of life. I intend to change this. I am giving myself one year and one month to take my life and make something of it. I will take the aspects of my life and myself and change them to how I want. No longer will I wallow in unmotivated depression but I shall now make a move on, reach for more. I honestly believe there is no greater thing a person can do than strive for more. So over the next year and a month I will waste less time on the Internet yet try to do more with my time on the Internet. I will learn a language. I will learn to use one of the many instruments I own. I will do more. Spend less. Eat well. Exercise. I will do a lot. I do not pretend that this is going to be easy or that change will come quickly, I know I must have patience and persevere. And I intend to update this blog, preferably everyday though not necessarily, to keep you up to date, to chart my course, and to keep me going. Over the next week or so I will be mainly setting those challenges that I will lay ahead of me. So wish me luck and I hope this inspires you to reach further.

Saturday, 27 August 2011

The Day That Came Next

So today being the seond day of this attempt I began by getting up ealrier so as to make the most of my day. I then proceeded to arrange some of my finanaces. not all that good but well enough. Then as part of a birthday gift from my parents I went to see Conan The Barbarian, which I have written a review of and will post as soon as I have typed it up. I have done some further knitting and spent some time discussing the coming year with my family.

One thing that I have been considering today is that one of my many faults is disorganisation. I have great need to improve on this however there is a problem. I cannot organise myself in unstable situations, with out being at university or having financial stability it is hard to make on going plans. I will endeavour though to come up with some plans as to assist my efforts. Another aspect of planning that is important is to set goals for myself, I cannot simpley move towards some unknown destination. So I have tasked myself with making some decisions that i will elaborate upon over the next few posts. It has become clear that I must focus myself, diverging from this I must also accept some aspect of spontaneity as well as allowing myself pleasure. there is little point to living if you do not enjoy life.

Vincent
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