I am twenty-two years of age as of today and looking back on the last two decades and two extra years I find myself not looking back at much. The truth is that when I look at my life I find myself disappointed, extremely disappointed. I am not hugely successful with people, not particularly intelligent, I’m unfit and unhealthy, I’m bad with money, and I’m impatient. I can’t play any instruments despite owning several and I can only speak one language. I’m not well travelled and I have little knowledge of the world. What’s probably worse is that I have aspirations and never follow them through. My life up to this point has been a shambles, a shadow of a life, a pathetic excuse for a life, a waste of life. I intend to change this. I am giving myself one year and one month to take my life and make something of it. I will take the aspects of my life and myself and change them to how I want. No longer will I wallow in unmotivated depression but I shall now make a move on, reach for more. I honestly believe there is no greater thing a person can do than strive for more. So over the next year and a month I will waste less time on the Internet yet try to do more with my time on the Internet. I will learn a language. I will learn to use one of the many instruments I own. I will do more. Spend less. Eat well. Exercise. I will do a lot. I do not pretend that this is going to be easy or that change will come quickly, I know I must have patience and persevere. And I intend to update this blog, preferably everyday though not necessarily, to keep you up to date, to chart my course, and to keep me going. Over the next week or so I will be mainly setting those challenges that I will lay ahead of me. So wish me luck and I hope this inspires you to reach further.

Tuesday, 4 October 2011

Urgency Please

This week has been one of great upheaval as I enter into this my third year of university and I was unfortunately driven to drink. Great shame on me though I will take pride in noting that I learnt from this early fault and later turned down several requests to drink even when I was offered them freely. As for reading I did not finish huckleberry finn as I spent a lot of time reading guides as to where I was supposed to go. I also doubt I will finish this particular book soon as in taking up a first year English course I find a list of books that take a clear priority above those I would like to read for leisure. Going beyond this writers block has been fierce but my first short story is almost done and will be posted on nom nom words tonight. I have also set my heart on two designs with which to enter for chance to be shown in the local gallery, one of a comic style surrounding the incredible squid-bear and one of a black and white rough sketch of many eyes. My Spanish has been going well however I have been receiving mixed advice which has left me a little confused. Hopefully I will begin making more clear progress in that area though. As for my endeavours or a musical variety I have quite honestly stalled.
On that note it is time to look to the challenges ahead! I must gain a guitar otherwise I can make little progress in the area of music. As for Spanish I have found that the simple translation of text is harder than expected but I have obtained a cd course that I will be powering through as well as sending emails and letters to pen pals. I have my books for my English course to read however if there is chance of slipping in another book I will and I will also be writing another short. Mainly I have simply to keep persevering with the actions that I have been taking, though I am also noticing that I need a greater sense of urgency with all things, so expect more numerous posts though they may only be brief.

Vincent   
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