I am twenty-two years of age as of today and looking back on the last two decades and two extra years I find myself not looking back at much. The truth is that when I look at my life I find myself disappointed, extremely disappointed. I am not hugely successful with people, not particularly intelligent, I’m unfit and unhealthy, I’m bad with money, and I’m impatient. I can’t play any instruments despite owning several and I can only speak one language. I’m not well travelled and I have little knowledge of the world. What’s probably worse is that I have aspirations and never follow them through. My life up to this point has been a shambles, a shadow of a life, a pathetic excuse for a life, a waste of life. I intend to change this. I am giving myself one year and one month to take my life and make something of it. I will take the aspects of my life and myself and change them to how I want. No longer will I wallow in unmotivated depression but I shall now make a move on, reach for more. I honestly believe there is no greater thing a person can do than strive for more. So over the next year and a month I will waste less time on the Internet yet try to do more with my time on the Internet. I will learn a language. I will learn to use one of the many instruments I own. I will do more. Spend less. Eat well. Exercise. I will do a lot. I do not pretend that this is going to be easy or that change will come quickly, I know I must have patience and persevere. And I intend to update this blog, preferably everyday though not necessarily, to keep you up to date, to chart my course, and to keep me going. Over the next week or so I will be mainly setting those challenges that I will lay ahead of me. So wish me luck and I hope this inspires you to reach further.

Tuesday, 13 September 2011

Big Tuesday 2: First Reckoning

Today I look back at those challenges that I set myself last week and I can safely say that I have completed them. I have been practicing my Spanish greetings and basics, my knowledge of notation as increased greatly. I read two books and several short stroies, I will admit though I did not watch as many films as I would have liked though I still have a number I need to review so it is no great loss. I have been keeping up to date with the news and have been getting up at 8 on most days. I have also looked to planning a day/night where I might give evidence to this push for honesty by putting myself in a position to be openly questioned by anyone, though I have yet to find a perfect date. Overall however I feel this week I could have done much more. So what of the week a head?

I am still limited by money and tools however I have a number of tasks I will fulfill. By next tuesday I will have a list of those events where I shall allow myself to drink. I will update more in general and more importantly make more hand written notes to make updating easier. I will have my day/night of honesty fully organised, and continue looking at events to plan over the next year. Continueing with the progress I have made I will post my introduction in Spanish and further test my music reading. I have my knitting to finish, and again two more books, hopefully one being the last in the Gormenghast trilogy. I also feel a desire to do more and more, it seems that with the acheivments I make my desire merely increases. Till tomorrow.

Vincent
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