I am twenty-two years of age as of today and looking back on the last two decades and two extra years I find myself not looking back at much. The truth is that when I look at my life I find myself disappointed, extremely disappointed. I am not hugely successful with people, not particularly intelligent, I’m unfit and unhealthy, I’m bad with money, and I’m impatient. I can’t play any instruments despite owning several and I can only speak one language. I’m not well travelled and I have little knowledge of the world. What’s probably worse is that I have aspirations and never follow them through. My life up to this point has been a shambles, a shadow of a life, a pathetic excuse for a life, a waste of life. I intend to change this. I am giving myself one year and one month to take my life and make something of it. I will take the aspects of my life and myself and change them to how I want. No longer will I wallow in unmotivated depression but I shall now make a move on, reach for more. I honestly believe there is no greater thing a person can do than strive for more. So over the next year and a month I will waste less time on the Internet yet try to do more with my time on the Internet. I will learn a language. I will learn to use one of the many instruments I own. I will do more. Spend less. Eat well. Exercise. I will do a lot. I do not pretend that this is going to be easy or that change will come quickly, I know I must have patience and persevere. And I intend to update this blog, preferably everyday though not necessarily, to keep you up to date, to chart my course, and to keep me going. Over the next week or so I will be mainly setting those challenges that I will lay ahead of me. So wish me luck and I hope this inspires you to reach further.

Friday, 2 September 2011

Two in One: End of the First Week

So having a look back upon my first week I have to say I am disappointed, I feel that I have the motivation but not the enthusiasm. I have been lame in my openning persual of being someone I am proud to be. This is easily changed however, I can at least see that I haven't done enough and that I am not making the most of this opportunity to become more. What is worse is that at the moment I have more time than I will when I return to my studies but I am not using it to it's full potential. It is true that I am lacking in money but that shouldn't be enough to stop my progress. I have to start progressing more in earnest, and so I have decided that I need to take further control of my life. Howevere there are difficulties in this as I also want to enjoy my time, this is not some unrelenting punishment for previous weakness. Tomorrow I will have written up all the things that I must do and a better structure for the activities I look to do. I will also look further ahead and begin planning meetings, parties and other events so I have more tangible goals.

As for yesterday and today there is little to say, last night I had my party which though fun was disappointing in the number of guests. I also read some of the chronicles of Conan and began reading Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep. Today I woke up late due to being drunk last night and having stumbled to my bed at 4 in the morning, I have work later and before and after I will be watching movies which will have reviews written. I also intend to make further progress with my monkey.

I promise tomorrow I will stop insulting those who bother to read this and have answers as well as greater enthusiam. My many appologies.

Vincent
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