I am twenty-two years of age as of today and looking back on the last two decades and two extra years I find myself not looking back at much. The truth is that when I look at my life I find myself disappointed, extremely disappointed. I am not hugely successful with people, not particularly intelligent, I’m unfit and unhealthy, I’m bad with money, and I’m impatient. I can’t play any instruments despite owning several and I can only speak one language. I’m not well travelled and I have little knowledge of the world. What’s probably worse is that I have aspirations and never follow them through. My life up to this point has been a shambles, a shadow of a life, a pathetic excuse for a life, a waste of life. I intend to change this. I am giving myself one year and one month to take my life and make something of it. I will take the aspects of my life and myself and change them to how I want. No longer will I wallow in unmotivated depression but I shall now make a move on, reach for more. I honestly believe there is no greater thing a person can do than strive for more. So over the next year and a month I will waste less time on the Internet yet try to do more with my time on the Internet. I will learn a language. I will learn to use one of the many instruments I own. I will do more. Spend less. Eat well. Exercise. I will do a lot. I do not pretend that this is going to be easy or that change will come quickly, I know I must have patience and persevere. And I intend to update this blog, preferably everyday though not necessarily, to keep you up to date, to chart my course, and to keep me going. Over the next week or so I will be mainly setting those challenges that I will lay ahead of me. So wish me luck and I hope this inspires you to reach further.

Tuesday, 6 September 2011

The First Big Tuesday: Day 12

Today is the first of my weekly big updates in which I lay plans ahead for the coming week and consider what is to be done. I am aware I haven't posted for the last to days however with the things that I am doing such as reading, knitting, socialising, reading, working and knitting it has been difficult to find time to get to a computer with internet access. But I have been working and thinking hard, so not all bad. And now we come to that point where I challenge myself across the week, and I will be pulling double time knowing that this will be the last full week before university begins anew. Whilst we have university on the mind though it isn't till the 17th I will say now that during freshers week I shall drink no alcohol.

OK! so what challenges have I set myself? Firstly two of my challenges arise due to lack of certain supplies. In my efforts to start towards playing guitar even though I do not yet have one it seems logical that I may well be able to study music, therefore I will be printing out sheets of music as well as basic information on notes and studying patterns familarising myself with all the different symbols. I intend to be able to go though a full peice of music by the end of this and fully decifer all those dots with the sticks in their backs. As for spanish though I would like to claim to be able to learn it from a dictionary I cannot, there is sentance structure and grammatical rules to consider. However I do have a phrase book and where better to start learning than with greetings and common conversation, I hope by the end of this week to be able to write up a small greeting peice possible with description about myself. Moving on from these things I will of course be updating all my other Blogs today and subsequently next week with the possibility of updates between. I shall be aiming to see three films at the cinema and also have a couple I aquired that I desire to watch. I am halfway through one book at this precise moment and intend to finish it and another before next Tuesday. On top of these due to a gift from lovely people I have a subscription to a concise newspaper and intend to read it cover to cover everyday. Slowly the tasks build. Finally though is merely forethought and planning, with my involvement with societies as well as other social ties I have a lot of planning to do. I hope by the next Tuesday to have one event planned to occur before the end of september that will be seperate from other groups and purely organised by my self.

So I have a lot to do and little time in which to do it but I start this week with rousing confidence to stride ever further, forever reaching in this endeavour to be me.

Vincent
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